I'm not setting myself any goals, I just want to see how much do I manage by the end of the year. I'm stealing the rating system from lasamy ♥.

01/10 > utterly devastating
02/10 > bad
03/10 > disappointing
04/10 > half-hearted
05/10 > average
06/10 > okay
07/10 > good
08/10 > very good
09/10 > awesome
10/10 > excellent

( movies in 2009 )

( books in 2009 )

I might add concerts or stuff when/if they happen. ;)

.... because of course, 'before me nothing was but things eternal, and eternal I endure, abandon all hope ye who enter here'.

Did I say that I LOVE that they stole the title from Dante's Inferno? Now I'm nostalgic of my high school days when I'd do that. *sigh* Well, hey, I always said Italian literature > you, at least until the 70s.

( Deep seated homophobia. )

Did I already say that quoting Dante = win? ;)

1. Between yesterday and today, I think I can divide the last twenty-four hours in pro/cons:

Pros: I got recced. While on the bus yesterday because I was going to a friend's birthday dinner I had a moment of enlightenment re the three fic exchanges I signed up for. I decided which prompt I'm doing for the Lost Hohoho one (I was still undecided), I planned what was left of the crossover one and mostly I realized what I need to write for the Dean/Cas one. I didn't do the wordcount I needed for the bigbang #2 but I'm quite into it and I'm pretty sure I'll manage it in a couple of days. And next week I don't have one class at all, which is definitely a pro.

Cons: I didn't do the wordcount I needed (well, that's a con), my phone charger is still dead and I can't and won't spend another twenty-five euros on it since I had bought it two months ago, I went to bed at three AM (not that I complain, the birthday dinner was awesome) and now I kind of want to go to sleep but can't and worst thing, I didn't get the job. :// I'm kind of not quite pleased with it right now because they used a system where they gave you points based on the weighted average between grades and the relation between the credits you have at this point and the credits you should have by now given the year and the number of exams. And it ended up with at least seven people arriving before me who had a lower weighted average but a higher relation and at least six having a higher weighted average and a lower relation. Which means that if someone gave four exams in two years when he should have given ten but got the maximum on them all that person was above me anyway even if I'm at the third year and given way more exams even without having all maximums. And at least five people who got in were running late (I'm not, or not yet anyway) and I didn't get it for five places. Argh, I don't really want to whine about it but I could have really used some money. :// Whatever, if six people decide they don't want it after all then I guess I might still get in, but I really can't see it happening. *sigh* Ah, whatever. I'll see if I can find something else.

2. After I post this I'll go checking out some place doing yoga near here. Maybe I can start again since last year I had too much stuff on my hands and couldn't find the time to go where I did it before. And I'd probably benefit if I took it up again.

3. Memes! One from bold_seer, one from catoasapun.

a) 1. Reply to this post, and I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon squee. Whoo!

Mine:



( under here )

b) - Reply to this meme by typing "I want in on this shit."
- I will then give you 3-5 words that remind me of you.
- Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

Warning: this is long. And I rambled. And if you like my current PM, I strongly advise to skip the last word.

( I got Good Omens, Ian Somerhalder, George Orwell, Bruce Springsteen, Italy. )

4. And then today I came home and... new Misha promo pic from S5. Can that man be any more... *dies* I just think that it's kind of not exactly representative because I've never seen Cas wearing those clothes, not that I'd mind if he did wear them. Not that I care. Aw, Misha, thanks for sort of making my days nicer by being so lovely yourself.

5. Christmas cards post is here, if anyone else would like one? ;)

6. Okay, I think I'm pretty much done also because I rambled more than I had thought I would. O_o I'll be out checking out that yoga thing and then I'll get back to writing. And also editing the other bigbang. If I manage to read something at the gym then I can put all of that in the pros. *waves*

Title: At Your Most Beautiful
Rating: very light R
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Words: 100
Summary: Castiel will always get distracted when counting them.
Spoilers: maybe a tiiiny one for 5x02 but it's more like re-using a line, not an actual thing that happened during the ep.
Disclaimer: nothing is mine, not even the title.
A/N: for prompt #13 at deancas100. I wrote it instead of paying attention during pedagogy class, so you can blame the weird tense and any other weirdness on that. Title stolen from REM.

( He’ll start from the left side. )

1. I finished the scifibigbang #1. Yes. Two weeks later than the deadline, but I finished it. Argh. Now I need to finish #2 in like three days maximum but in this one I needed to figure plot out, in that one I don't. Which means it'll take a lot less. And my record was 10000 words in one day which means I'll try to re-do it. And then I can go doing my Christmas exchange fics (and thankfully two are already planned in my head) and then I can go and start doing things in time. Yes. That wouldn't be a bad idea.

2. Apparently, my master fic list doesn't fit into one post anymore. If I was able to do summaries without quoting from the actual fics then I wouldn't have the problem, but is seems like I'm not able. So sometime in the next week I'll probably split it in two and keep part I for Lost and part II for everything else, so if a random half of master fic list pops up on your fl next week just ignore it. ;)

3. I went to see The Men Who Stare At Goats and it's AWESOME. George Clooney + Ewan McGregor + pacifism + crack on a stick which actually is serious + goats + Boston = awesomeness. Now I need to go catch Public Enemies, Up and The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus. Sometime in the next two weeks I guess. Maybe when I finish the bigbang #2.

4. There will be a card post coming soon-ish. Either tonight or tomorrow.

5. I'm not going to throw another ton of Misha Collins fangirling on everyone again, but after the latest con I can only say two things. One, that he's so awesome that I can't even fathom. Two, that I want April to be tomorrow. Oh, and I need to add, this morning I spent twenty minutes or so staring at this. I'm sadly not lying. Misha, why, why so awesome? (and fine looking, I need to add?)

6. Aand, BOOK RECS! I have some stuff I've been reading in the last month and a half or so, but I wanted to finish a couple so I ended up doing the post just now.

( Stephen King, Steve Earle, Neil Gaiman (again), Cheeta's autobiography, Michael Chabon (again) and maybe something else. Mostly short stories books. )

7. Also, I'm the only person who forgets when she DOESN'T have classes. Last Thursday I was sure I had one and I waited two hours after I finished the first before realizing that the professor said he was not going to be there this week. I mean. Not that I lost time or anything but... *sigh* though, next week I'll just have the pedagogy class one day and NOT ON FRIDAY! YAY! I'll manage to see the SPN ep in peace for once.

8. Okay, off answering comments and stuff I owe. Maybe after I'll re-post some ficlets, but I need to see if I'll still be awake. *waves*

No SPN or vamp porn related, but the fact that Genevieve Cortese is having more than one line in FF is making me headdesk.

( the vampire porn, I can't remember a good quote )

NOW, ON TO THE MOST LOL-TASTICALLY AWESOME SPN OF THIS YEAR IF NOT EVER.

( It's not jumping the shark if you never land. )

Because while I write stuff which I have a deadline for I end up trying to write drabbles. :/ And I shouldn't be up at one AM, but I apparently am and that's what comes out.

Title: Doubt Not For Me
Rating: PG
Pairing: past!Dean/future!Castiel
Words: 100
Summary: He doesn’t flinch when Cas’ grip tightens.
Spoilers: for 5x04.
Disclaimer: pfff, not mine.
A/N: title from the same Flogging Molly song I steal for past!Dean/future!Castiel fics. And, I haven't written a drabble in ages and I'm obsessed with 5x04. That'd be it.

( Dean gets it. )

And thanks to flying_colours for directing me there.

Stephen King is apparently writing another Dark Tower novel set in between books IV and V.

Be right back, FLAILING LIKE A MAD THING. SERIOUSLY. I'M FORGETTING I EVER HATED THE LAST PART OF THE LAST BOOK.

So. He publishes a book each year. If it's next year's one someone will hear my squeeing in Antarctica.

I MEAN, ANOTHER DT SET IN BETWEEN FOUR AND FIVE WHICH MEANS IT'S ALL MY FAVORITE PEOPLE. And MORE EDDIE DEAN IN MY LIFE WHEN I THOUGHT I WOULDN'T GET ANY MORE. And I miss them all and MY FOREVER SHIP, DAMMIT. My forever fandom, dammit. *sniff*

I'm currently a happy camper.

Sorry for the interruption. Back writing. I might actually accomplish something today if I keep on not being distracted by awesome news.

Jesus, YES.

Seems like I'm still obsessed with it as I was years ago. Well. Good for me.

Okay, I hit enough of my wordcounting for today. I'll post this and get back to it.

Title: I Found God And All His Devils Inside Him
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Type: Fanmix + 9 icons + 3 wallpapers [all music by Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds]
Spoilers: mostly for the art, up until 5x04
Notes: okay, so, this is also onlyechoes' fault because when I threw it out she didn't tell me I was crazy. Mostly I realized that Nick Cave + Dean/Cas = OTP. IMO, at least. Some lyrics are probably sorta morbid. And, I completely went crazy with this meaning that I also made icons and stuff out of the covers. Which I had never done before but I was kind of liking how it was coming together, so I just figured I would. And now I'll shut up. The title is from Do You Love Me?. The first thirteen songs are supposed to follow canon, the last two should have pretty much general coverage.

1. Blah. This morning I overslept and missed class. And then when I tried to recharge my phone it wasn't working (and hasn't been for two days). Then I found out it was the charger when I used my mother's. Arrgh, buying a new one is so not what I need. Anyway, at least it's working now. *phew*

2. I owe a shitload of comments/replies. Sorry for that, I'll try to get to them asap.

3. That said, I hope to be done with all the deadline fic in five days. *headdesk* It seems like the stuff I'm supposed to write won't work. *kicks self*

4. But, on to funnier things! Last Saturday I found out that my bookshop had a 20% discount on all the cds and dvds, which meant that I got the last Bon Jovi record, an old Nick Cave one, the Boston Greatest Hits and the DVDs for Lost S5 and I paid everything 30 euros less than it should have been in total. \o/ That said, I'm kind of surprised that in Europe we got the Lost dvds before America or so it seems, but if everyone remembers my post last year, this is the volume #2 of the crap whoever adapted it for Italian TV came up with. I'm sorry there are no gems like last year's 'Kate is a man' or 'Locke wants to leave the island', but there's some good stuff too.

( Wherein people can't translate titles. )

5. Ookay, I should be doing stuff. Like, writing. Or posting a fanmix. Or catching up with comments. So, I'll probably do one of the three while trying to make contact with a friend I was supposed to have lunch with and with whom I couldn't talk until now because of the phone issue. *waves*

Title: How Castiel Got Lost In LOST (or, how an angel of the Lord faced the Smoke Monster, among the rest)
Rating: PG13
Characters: Castiel, Dean and Sam for SPN; Sayid, Sawyer, Smokey, Jacob and a few guest stars for Lost
Words: 3333 (really.)
Summary: the Trickster sends Castiel on the island. Chaos ensues.
Spoilers: heavy for 5x08 for SPN; set in late S2 for Lost, but there's a character from the S5 finale.
Disclaimer: SPN is not mine and Lost is not mine either. Why, you had any doubts?
A/N: this is crack on a stick. More or less. And I can blame at least three or four people from my FL who totally didn't try to dissuade me from writing this. Anyway, a couple of other shows are mentioned in passing. And... just, alright, I have no excuses except for SPN handing me this on a silver plate and Lost being crazy stuff.

( When Castiel realizes that he’s on what looks like a tropical island or a jungle, he blinks. Then when nothing changes, he blinks again. )

Title: Back Roads Never Carry You Where You Want Them To (or how Chuck Shirley taught an angel how to drive)
Rating: PG
Characters: Chuck, future!Castiel; future!Dean mentioned
Words: 4100
Summary: Then again, Chuck remembers that Dean not using safety belts was never his idea and that Cas here really needs to learn how to drive, Dean won’t be up for teaching anytime soon and no one else has, as people generally have put it until now, time to waste.
Spoilers: for 5x04.
Disclaimer: not mine. Not really.
A/N: this is for hopelessfangirl just because I can. ;) ♥ ♥ Though well, er, the idea was that it was supposed to be crack or fun and then it turned angst-ish. I guess that I can't make future!Cas fun even if I want to because he makes me cry so. *cough* Using for sacred_20 #19, writer's choice (fallen). Title from a random Steve Earle song which doesn't have anything to do with this as usual. But I said it already, I can't come up with titles.
A/N 2: I have a love/hate relationship with cars. And driving. It probably shows.

( Chuck hadn’t been physically able to say no. )

Fuck this and fuck class, I need to review now before I forget stuff. Let's just hope I'm done in ten minutes.

( Dr Sexy MD WHAT? )

I love this show. Did I say it already? <3

1. So I'm still half MIA. Because I'm finishing the fics for scifibigbang and I'm late *cough* but I should be done within the week. I hope I am, at least. I need to. Sorry if I reply to both entries and comments late or at random. Whyy am I always late?

2. On to fun stuff, last day I was at university and look at what was written on that thing you're supposed to write on when you only have chairs and not desks! (Sorry for the sucky explanation, but I don't know the English name)

( I need to find the other Lost fan ASAP. )

3. Meme from mollivanders, in order to actually write something in this entry.

Leave me a comment saying "Resistance is Futile."
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can satisfy my curiosity
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions

( my questions (re seasons, ships and stuff )

4. Since I'm here, sign for Lost Hohoho! I'm so doing it again this year. And if last year someone actually wrote the Karl/Locke mpreg vampire fic, now I want to see someone attempting the Hurley/Shannon wingsex genderswapping one...

5. Just two words on the latest Heroes related news, not that I watch it but when it's relevant to my interests I read news. Warning: not exactly nice. ( So... )

6. Another two words on Flashforward. ( I'm still kinda meh. )

7. I fear that one of these days I'll have a political rant. *sigh* I should stop reading newspapers.

8. Okay, I'll get back writing. *waves* And when I'm done I'll finish checking all the awesome spooky fic at thequillstation which I couldn't check already.

First, LOOK AT MY NEW JOINT REACTION POSTS ICON!! ISN'T IT PERFECT?

Was it me or this episode the vampire porn kicked ass?

( Dude? REALLY, DUDE? )

Aaaand, on to SPN!

( 'Just like two old geezers...' 'SHUT UP, SAM!' )

Okay. Back to writing shit also because this evening I have to go out to dinner with my former classmates and I still have no idea about how I'm supposed to get in that place since they chose a completely fucked up location. What.

This is so Not what I should have been doing. Whoever left that prompt at thequillstation? I dunno who you are but I'm sure you knew I was going to take it. ;)

Title: Mystery Spot
Rating: light NC17
Pairing: Jack/Boone
Words: 2454
Spoilers: for The Incident.
Summary: He comes to his senses and it's dark; "... Jack?" a weak, soft and shocked voice asks; everything goes black.
Disclaimer: Lost is sure as hell not mine. Groundhog Day is not mine. The prompt isn't mine either. The title is from a SPN episode and it isn't mine either. Got the point?
A/N: written for the spooky battle at thequillstation for the prompt Jack/Boone, groundhog day death. I just couldn't NOT do it, even if I seriously should be finishing a lot of other crap. Using for 2x5obsessions #1, estranged existence. And whoever watches SPN will get why I stole the title from that episode. Mostly because I don't have time to come up with an intelligent one. (Actually, cookies if you get the SPN reference which doesn't have zilch to do with Mystery Spot.)

( Jack closes his eyes. )

I seriously can't believe I stuck to my schedule.

Title: There Will Come Soft Rains 5/5
Pairings: Dean/Castiel, some Sam/Jess
Rating: NC17
Word count: this part 5786; total 36000
Spoilers: it's totally AU but since I tried to nod at canon as much as I could there are some S4/S5 spoilers. 5x04 mainly.
Summary: Two years after World War III starts, Dean Winchester is a disillusioned former veteran leading a survivors' camp in the former state of Kansas whose life takes a very, very unexpected turn. Starting when he rescues this guy with huge blue eyes named after an angel.
Warnings: this is a post nuclear war fallout setting with everything that it implies. There's violence and descriptions of situations which could be nasty at best and disturbing at least or however possibly upsetting and/or triggering. Also for plot purposes Dean is an Iraq war veteran (the last one, not the Gulf war) and there are sections dealing with it and for that are valid the same warnings.
A/N: written for the AU/AR challenge at deancastiel for the prompt There are no angels or demons, and the apocalypse happened with bombs and a very human war.. And, this is where Bobby gets to be awesome and it sort of ends but now I want to write snippets because I had more stuff that wouldn't have fit so who knows. Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV.

( It’s the week before what used to be Christmas when Dean gets into the cabin, back from a meeting with people leading nearby camps that happens once each month and from a conversation with Bobby which he doesn’t know what to make of. )

Title: There Will Come Soft Rains 4/5
Pairings: Dean/Castiel, some Sam/Jess
Rating: NC17
Word count: this part 7334; total, around 35000
Spoilers: it's totally AU but since I tried to nod at canon as much as I could there are some S4/S5 spoilers. 5x04 mainly.
Summary: Two years after World War III starts, Dean Winchester is a disillusioned former veteran leading a survivors' camp in the former state of Kansas whose life takes a very, very unexpected turn. Starting when he rescues this guy with huge blue eyes named after an angel.
Warnings: this is a post nuclear war fallout setting with everything that it implies. There's violence and descriptions of situations which could be nasty at best and disturbing at least or however possibly upsetting and/or triggering. Also for plot purposes Dean is an Iraq war veteran (the last one, not the Gulf war) and there are sections dealing with it and for that are valid the same warnings.
A/N: written for the AU/AR challenge at deancastiel for the prompt There are no angels or demons, and the apocalypse happened with bombs and a very human war.. Aand, this is where I sort of half send the angst packing. More or less. Part I | Part II | Part III.

( Dean doesn’t understand what was it about until a week or so later. )

Title: There Will Come Soft Rains 3/5
Pairings: Dean/Castiel, some Sam/Jess
Rating: NC17
Word count: this part 6679; total, around 30000
Spoilers: it's totally AU but since I tried to nod at canon as much as I could there are some S4/S5 spoilers. 5x04 mainly.
Summary: Two years after World War III starts, Dean Winchester is a disillusioned former veteran leading a survivors' camp in the former state of Kansas whose life takes a very, very unexpected turn. Starting when he rescues this guy with huge blue eyes named after an angel.
Warnings: this is a post nuclear war fallout setting with everything that it implies. There's violence and descriptions of situations which could be nasty at best and disturbing at least or however possibly upsetting and/or triggering. Also for plot purposes Dean is an Iraq war veteran (the last one, not the Gulf war) and there are sections dealing with it and for that are valid the same warnings. And in this chapter there's a flashback regarding that which isn't anything too nice.
A/N: written for the AU/AR challenge at deancastiel for the prompt There are no angels or demons, and the apocalypse happened with bombs and a very human war.. And this is where things do actually happen. Whoever gets the subtle (?) Lost reference gets a cookie. Part I | Part II.

( Dean's new carefully balanced routine abruptly changes on May 2nd, what a chance. )

Title: There Will Come Soft Rains 2/5
Pairings: Dean/Castiel, some Sam/Jess
Rating: NC17
Word count: this part 8478; total, around 30000
Spoilers: it's totally AU but since I tried to nod at canon as much as I could there are some S4/S5 spoilers. 5x04 mainly.
Summary: Two years after World War III starts, Dean Winchester is a disillusioned former veteran leading a survivors' camp in the former state of Kansas whose life takes a very, very unexpected turn. Starting when he rescues this guy with huge blue eyes named after an angel.
Warnings: this is a post nuclear war fallout setting with everything that it implies. There's violence and descriptions of situations which could be nasty at best and disturbing at least or however possibly upsetting and/or triggering. Also for plot purposes Dean is an Iraq war veteran (the last one, not the Gulf war) and there are sections dealing with it and for that are valid the same warnings.
A/N: written for the AU/AR challenge at deancastiel for the prompt There are no angels or demons, and the apocalypse happened with bombs and a very human war.. I'm afraid this is the part where a lot of talking happens and not much plot does, but I needed it to set the rest of the action moving. Part I.

( Dean doesn’t any get sleep indeed, but it’s fine. )