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16 January 2009 @ 12:59 pm
fic, Lost: And So It Will Go (faint Desmond/Daniel), PG, for chem15try  
So I am supposed to be writing other stuff but I sadly can't focus much and I figured I could snap out of it by trying something completely different. This is probably weird, but well, it's also concerning Faraday.

Title: And So It Will Go
Rating: PG I think
Characters: Desmond, Daniel, faint Des/Daniel and implied Des/Penny
Words: 946
Summary: Daniel will come closer, too close maybe even if Desmond won’t exactly mind it. He will ask, “Will you finally tell me, brother?”, and Daniel will nod and come even closer and breathe over his lips, merely more than a whisper but clear and only for Desmond to hear, “You have to go back.”
Spoilers: for the S4 finale.
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine. It'd be easier to understand.
A/N: using for chem15try #6, isomers, and lostfichallenge #85, predictions. Erm, I'm experimenting here. I just hope it makes sense. I think it's pretty clear where I stole the title from. Sorry, I'm definitely not worthy.

Nothing will happen for a while.

--

Desmond won’t wish for anything to really happen; by the time Penny was in his arms again, he had come to appreciate how the words uneventful life can, when placed next to each other, have a fairly positive meaning. He surely won’t wish for heroic deeds. He won’t wish for anything out of the ordinary. Her presence by his side will be enough to fulfil any wish he might have.

It won’t last forever though.

--

It will begin months later. Maybe even a year. He won’t know. One is allowed to lose track of time, when it isn’t necessary.

One day he will be stepping out of the shower, the Searcher anchored somewhere in New Zealand; Penny will be on shore in order to do some necessary shopping.

He will see Daniel Faraday as he was when Desmond had recognized him on the Kahana once; it will seem like centuries have passed since it happened, even if of course such a span of time is out of discussion.

He will be standing in front of him; Desmond will be naked except for a towel, his hair dripping water over the floor. Faraday will be fully dressed, tie included, his hand twitching.

He will look straight into Desmond’s eyes and disappear.

--

It will happen again on a similar occasion, except that Penny will be cooking and Desmond will be in the bedroom. He will be wearing jeans and a blue flannel shirt, Faraday will be the same. He will smile at Desmond, a timid weak smile, and then he will disappear again. Desmond won’t know if he’s hallucinating.

--

It will happen a third time and Desmond will have his answer.

“What’s… what’s happening…?”

It will be the first time Desmond will speak; Faraday will look at him, eyebrow slightly raised.

“I thought… that… uhm, you would… you would know. After all… you’ve already done… already done this. Haven’t you?”

He will be gone in a flash again; Desmond will know that he’s time traveling at once.

--

It will happen countless times. Always when he’s alone. Always when Penny isn’t there. Always when no one else can see him.

It won’t happen so frequently at the beginning, but it will happen frequently after some time.

“Why are you here?” Desmond will ask once. He won’t know which time it was; he will have lost the count by then. He never was too good at keeping track of time anyway.

“It’s a… a rather urgent matter.”

“Then why haven’t you told me anythin’ yet?”

“You need… time. To get... get it. Still. I mean. If I told you now, you wouldn’t believe me. Or maybe, maybe you would but it... it wouldn’t be enough. But for me… for me it’s fine. For… for you, it’s been months. For me, it’s been ten seconds.”

“But how…?”

Faraday will be gone before Desmond can even finish the question.

--

“How can you?” Desmond will ask the next day. The other half of the question will be implied; how can you come to me over the spread of days, months even and only mere seconds pass wherever you are.

“Oh, that’s... easy. Yeah, easy. You’re… you’re my constant.”

Desmond will wonder for days if the feeling of Daniel’s lips against his own in the following, fleeting second before Daniel’s vanish into thin air had been real or his imagination.

--

He will start coming twice each day. Desmond will start seeing him when Penny is present, too; but he will know she won’t be able to see anything. That’s why he will ignore him when she’s there, too. Or at least, he will try.

It will become clear that Daniel is only for him to see. Desmond will realize then that he will be referring to him by first name by then; he won’t be able to recall when he had started to.

--

The answer will come the last time Daniel will appear; on the evening of that same day, Desmond will get a call from Sayid.

Daniel will appear on the deck, sunlight beating down on its surface, still warm because it’s early. Very early. Not even nine in the morning.

Daniel will come closer, too close maybe even if Desmond won’t exactly mind it. He will ask, “Will you finally tell me, brother?”, and Daniel will nod and come even closer and breathe over his lips, merely more than a whisper but clear and only for Desmond to hear, “You have to go back.”

He will kiss him gently, after, for a couple of seconds. Just lips against lips, nothing more. Desmond won’t move, but he won’t back away either. He won’t know why, though.

Then Daniel will be gone. Maybe forever, maybe not. Desmond will stand there on the deck, his hands shaking and chill spreading through his body, despite the warmth of the air, remembering a frail piece of paper closed in a drawer next to his old blue shirt, and he will know he won’t be able to escape whatever lies in front of him much longer. He will feel at peace with it though; a calm he has rarely experienced will fill him someway and he will search for the words to tell Penny.

--

Desmond still doesn’t know about any of this though, as he embraces Penny on the Searcher’s deck and crushes her to his chest as soon as she’s within reach; Daniel, who is back on the island, where things are different, where life has already become too dangerous, as his consciousness already drifts where his constant is, already knows everything.

End.
 
 
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Shona: lost - charlie (feedback)toestastegood on January 16th, 2009 02:04 pm (UTC)
Oh my god, you're enchanting!

That was amazing. I love how you wrote it. The future tense works so well for our little time-travellers. The opening and ending sections are incredibly sad in light of that. I feel so bad for Penny - she really did fall in love with the wrong guy. What an endless amount of drama and peril and general weirdness she's going to have to deal with.

All these little snippets of Daniel were fantastic, of course. I could visualise him perfectly. The little kisses between the pair were sweet and sad as well. It wasn't like there was something romantic or sexual about them, I think - it was just the weight of connection.

Man, reading this has got me even more hyped up for the series starting! I can't wait to see Desmond and wee Daniel again. Awesome! ♥
the female ghost of tom joad: feedbackjanie_tangerine on January 16th, 2009 07:12 pm (UTC)
Enchanting is flattering my ego too much. ;)

No, seriously, thank you so much. I'm so glad the style worked here, I don't know why I decided that future tense was appropriate but I did and I'm mighty happy to hear it worked.

God, I totally feel bad for her, too. Poor woman. I can understand her, though, even if I can only sympathize with her way too much considering what's in front of her.

It's so good to hear Daniel came through fine! I never write him because I fear I'd mess stuff up so now I'm definitely rubbing my hands. And yeah, the kisses weren't meant to be sexual or romantic either, but they felt right in order to stress the whole connection/constant thing. Thanks so much, I'm so glad you liked it! And yeah, I can't wait to see them, too. Totally. ♥
elliotsmelliot: Danielelliotsmelliot on January 16th, 2009 06:30 pm (UTC)
This was a beautifully disorienting piece. I felt like time stopped every time Daniel appeared. The tense worked so well. It really helped show how Desmond was always just about to understand.

Daniel, who is back on the island, where things are different, where life has already become too dangerous, as his consciousness already drifts where his constant is, already knows everything.

You could have just written the last paragraph and all would be right with the world. Great use of the prompt! With fics like this I could do another six month hiatus! ♥
the female ghost of tom joad: lost faradayjanie_tangerine on January 16th, 2009 07:17 pm (UTC)
♥ Now you're seriously flattering me. I'm really happy the last paragraph worked, it just felt like the natural way to close this.

It's definitely good to hear that it was disorienting because it was kind of the target. And to hear that Daniel worked here, I'm too nervous about writing the guy for my own good. I don't think I've written anything else in future tense but it felt right for this one. Thank you so much, very glad you enjoyed it! ♥
Janicejaydblu on January 16th, 2009 11:00 pm (UTC)
Very nice! The whole fic has kind of a dreamlike quality to it. And Daniel's gentle kisses to Desmond work for me in this context, it just seems right. Really very good.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost daniel/desmondjanie_tangerine on January 17th, 2009 10:36 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, I'm really glad you liked it! Especially that the whole kissing thing worked in the context because I always worry when I write the pairing. Thanks again! ♥
Creature Of Hobbit: daniel: just losttellshannon815 on January 16th, 2009 11:24 pm (UTC)
Loved this, great Daniel characterisation here!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost faradayjanie_tangerine on January 17th, 2009 10:31 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! And definitely great to hear I did Daniel right. ;)
weehobbit: LOST -- daniel - constant sorrowweehobbit on January 17th, 2009 08:18 am (UTC)
Oh my god!! You wrote Daniel/Desmond again! I loooove it. Angsty. Oh, Daniel D: Oh Desmond. I totally squeed while reading this. It totally makes sense, by the way. Especially if you've seen that trailer floating around.

Daniel giving Des a kiss before he time hops?! AHHH my god.

The last part! :(((((
But I can use this appropriate icon now, haha! :D

Did I tell you you are so awesome for writing them again?! ♥
the female ghost of tom joad: lost daniel/desmondjanie_tangerine on January 17th, 2009 10:30 am (UTC)
Ha, yes, I did it again! And I hope to keep on doing it if the show gives me a hell of an idea. ;)

I think I've seen the first two trailers but not others, so glad to hear it made canon-sense! Or so I think. And I soooo couldn't resist the kiss. I mean, I have to justify my tag right?

The icon is MOSTLY appropriate!! And ha, thank you so so much, I'm so happy you liked it! *basks in awesomeness before getting back on earth* ♥
weehobbit: LOST -- dan/des - constantweehobbit on January 17th, 2009 04:09 pm (UTC)
Haha yeah, I kind of subscribed to that tag since I read your first story and was sad when I got the alert in the morning and wouldn't be able to read it till I got home late at night so was excited to finally read it.

I'm reading some of your other fic now and don't want to spam your inbox (unless you want me to? lol) but just wanted to let you know I may or may not have woke up a housemate downstairs when I read Networking & the sequel from giggling so hard. It's amazing all the different genres you can write! And pairings!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost daniel/desmondjanie_tangerine on January 17th, 2009 07:00 pm (UTC)
Oh, please spam my inbox!! It's good when it happens. ;) ;) And then I'll see if I can alert you more often. ;)

And ha, glad you enjoyed Networking and I'm sorry for your housemate but not really sorry for having written that madness. It was a mad thing. Thanks so much, I'm totally flattered here. ♥
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the female ghost of tom joad: lost des personal jesusjanie_tangerine on January 17th, 2009 06:57 pm (UTC)
You flatter me. You know it, right? ♥

Thanks so much, it's so good to hear you liked it! The style wasn't my thing at all but I kind of loved writing it like this and it felt good in order to deal with the whole dissociated time thing. I just wanted it to feel like they were going in the direction of something inevitable while not making it too fatalistic. I'm so happy you enjoyed it, thanks so much! ♥
missy_uselessmissy_useless on January 17th, 2009 09:49 pm (UTC)
My god, this is amazing!

First of all, the use of the future tense is ingenious. Seriously, it works so well for this kind of fic. And then, I just love how you wrote Daniel - I can visualise him completely. (Plus, I also love the tenderness between him and Desmond. The kiss before he vanishes is just so ... I don't know, not sexual in any way, but almost necessary and simply right, connecting them.)

Great work!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost julietjanie_tangerine on January 17th, 2009 10:59 pm (UTC)
You're too good to me really. ;) Thank you so much!

I had never written in future tense but it just felt right for this one to me, so I'm really glad you thought the same. ;) And wow, thanks so much indeed because Daniel is terrible to write and I always think I get him wrong. The kiss was supposed to be about connecting them and not anything sexual really so makes me happy to hear it was a good mean. ;) Thanks again, I'm really glad you enjoyed it! ♥