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09 July 2009 @ 06:52 pm
fic, Lost: The Best Laid Schemes Of Mice And Men Often Go Awry (Sawyer), PG13  
Okay, I'm caught up with luau gifting (not reading, sadly), so I swear this is the last post of the kind you get for today. Sorry for spamming. Bless my day for being early..

Title: The Best Laid Schemes Of Mice And Men Often Go Awry
Rating: PG13 to be sure?
Characters: Sawyer, implied Sawyer/Juliet for the canon I needed
Words: 500 (or, me trying to do the multiple drabbles thing)
Spoilers: er, heavy for the S5 finale. And sort of for Of Mice And Men.
Summary: There's the thing with Jim LaFleur: Sawyer knows that it's just a fake name for his x-hundredth fake identity. The difference is that all of Sawyer's previous identities' purpose was destroying someone else's white picket fence, while this one could be the key for his own metaphorical one.
Disclaimer: Lost isn't mine and if Of Mice And Men was mine I'd be John Steinbeck and I'd have won a Nobel prize for literature. And for how much I wish it was the case, it isn't. ;)
A/N: (last late) fic for the gracious Queen elise_509 at lostsquee who wished for reasons to remind her of some Sawyer love. Er. This ended up being a mix between me explaining (sort of) S5 Sawyer (because I kinda didn't get him either) and between me loving way too much the bare fact that he likes Steinbeck. I just hope it makes some sense and that you like it! ♥ Also because I kinda haven't written from his POV in.. er, ages. Title stolen from the poem from which Steinbeck stole his title.

The only school essay that earned James Ford an A plus, in ninth grade, consisted in his first impressions upon reading Of Mice And Men.

In a nutshell, it said that every character in there dreamed of getting their version of the white picket fence, that the end stated without a doubt that only idiots (plain or metaphoric) never give up on it and that George was the most admirable character of them all because he was the only one who understood it fully and who embraced its futility.

Point is, one good grade doesn't stop you from dropping out.

--

Of Mice And Men remains Sawyer's favorite book; he reads it once each year, mostly because it's a perfect reminder of everything he has to remember. The only year he skips it, it's the one following the whole Cassidy fiasco; he re-reads it in prison and there it is, all on paper.

After all, that was the closest to the metaphorical white picket fence he ever got and see where he ended. Indeed, it's only for idiots, and wasn't he one. Whatever. He had thought he had understood it from before he changed his name. Looks like he was wrong.

--

There's the thing with Jim LaFleur: Sawyer knows that it's just a fake name for his x-hundredth fake identity. The difference is that all of Sawyer's previous identities' purpose was destroying someone else's white picket fence, while this one could be the key for his own metaphorical one.

It's not that he rationally doesn't realize that it just isn't him and that white picket fences are for idiots. It's that for the first time since he-can't-remember-when he wonders how would it feel to actually have it. The voice in his head saying con doesn't stop him from taking his chance.

--

Things with Juliet just happen. He doesn't search for it, she doesn't either; it's that too many people had left that island already and anyway, what good would it do to get away when in the real world they were barely out of second grade anyway?

Also, it's not like anyone is coming for them anytime soon.

Sometimes he remembers that line Ben quoted at him that day. A guy gets too lonely, and he gets sick. Maybe it's just as simple as that.

That little place you always wanted, George?

He just doesn't think about the way it ended.

--

It falls completely apart when Juliet throws at him that nonsense about Kate.

That's when the small voice saying con starts screaming again. It doesn't matter; what it matters it's that in his head there's a white picket fence stained in red and that it's all over. She's gone, everything is gone, reality tastes as bitter as the blood in his mouth since his fight with Jack and not a bit as sweet as their fine lie did.

George embraces how futile that idiotic dream was, he had written once. The second before everything turns white, he finally does, too.

End.
 
 
feeling: accomplishedaccomplished
 
 
 
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the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on July 9th, 2009 05:44 pm (UTC)
Aw, thank you so much! ♥ I'm really glad you liked this, especially because while I love getting into his head I hadn't done it in a while and it's good to know I still have the connection with him. ;) And thanks for quoting what you liked best here, I think it was the one I liked best writing too. Thanks again!
siluria: Lost_Sawyer stormsiluria on July 9th, 2009 09:17 pm (UTC)
I've never read Of Mice and Men, but the concept of embracing (or not) the picket fence and Sawyer seeing that in La Fleur is genius. Your metaphor and the way you write Sawyer's thoughts through this is perfect. I may be a little awed, and rather jealous of you right now xx
the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on July 9th, 2009 09:34 pm (UTC)
Aw, don't be! Remember that I'll always envy you the easiness with J/S ;) That said, thank you so much! I didn't know whether I was stretching it too much with the metaphors but the whole thing about LaFleur and the picket fence is the only way I can reasonably explain myself the whole S5 Sawyer deal so much glad to know it worked. ;) Thank you again!! ♥
Laura: SAWYER 3elise_509 on July 9th, 2009 09:33 pm (UTC)
Wow, hon, your use of Of Mice and Men is marvelous here. This is so sad and aching and the bit about Sawyer and Juliet, well it almost made me feel badly over the loss of that relationship and that's saying a lot considering how I am very much not a fan of that pairing. Simply put, you did something amazing here! :) Thank you so much, babe!


the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on July 9th, 2009 10:18 pm (UTC)
Oh, thanks so much! I'm really so glad you liked it and that you liked how I used that book, I had always half-wanted to do something Sawyer related referencing it but I only got the right idea now. And ha, wow, if I made you almost feel bad about the Sawyer/Juliet part of it it means I hit the target so I'm all flailing here. (Even if tbh I don't like it as they did in canon either *shrugs* *sighs*). And aw, thank you so much again, much happy that it fit the bill! ♥
Allie: Sawyer - heartbreakalliecat8 on July 10th, 2009 03:01 am (UTC)
"George embraces how futile that idiotic dream was, "he had written once. The second before everything turns white, he finally does, too.

That breaks my heart. That, and the vivid mental picture of the white picket fence, stained red. The symbols you use in this fic -- the the book and the white picket fence -- are absolutely genius; they say so much about what's going on inside Sawyer's head. It isn't the first time he's gotten so sucked into a con that he loses sight of reality -- I think that happened with Cassidy, too -- but I think it's the only time he's stumbled onto his secret heart's desire and then had to give it up. Sigh. Your insight and images are amazing, you did SUCH a great job! It made me cry for Sawyer, but I am in awe of you!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on July 10th, 2009 08:05 am (UTC)
Uh, I'm seriously beyond flattered here. *blushes* Thank you so much, before actually going with it I was worried that it was too much of a stretch but then it didn't want to go away and I went. ;) I agree that he had gotten completely sucked into the con with Cassidy too, but this round it was a lot more serious. Aw, Jesus, poor Sawyer. *hugs him and sends him your way* And thank you again, this = best comment I could wake up to. ♥
the story girl: Lost: sawyereponine119 on July 10th, 2009 04:23 am (UTC)
Wow, just, wow. This was kinda breathtaking.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on July 10th, 2009 08:03 am (UTC)
Uh, wow right back at you and thanks so much! ♥ *iz flattered*
Emily: sawyeremiliglia on July 11th, 2009 02:10 pm (UTC)
This was incredible. Of Mice and Men just worked so perfect here. The second to last section is like a punch to the gut and there's something poetic about the last section. Loved it!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on July 11th, 2009 06:47 pm (UTC)
Aw, thank you so much! The second to last one was probably my favorite to write so yay for you liking it. I'm really happy you liked this, thanks again!
Creature Of Hobbit: james sawyer fordtellshannon815 on July 11th, 2009 03:55 pm (UTC)
Great use of Of Mice and Men here, loved it!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on July 11th, 2009 06:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! ♥

Edited at 2009-07-11 06:47 pm (UTC)
Zelda: Sawyer Smilezelda_zee on July 13th, 2009 05:57 am (UTC)
I love how you used Of Mice and Men here. It works so well in relation to Sawyer's story. Very nicely done!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on July 13th, 2009 07:45 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! I always figured there was a reason he liked that book, you know. ;) Much glad you liked it!
...a kind of sweet metaphysical blur...: ajirahitlikehammers on July 14th, 2009 03:15 am (UTC)
So, it's been some time since I read Of Mice And Men, but going off of what I remember, I think I like this better. Exponentially. This was subtle and epic and quiet and loud and somber and stark and soft and sharp, and all the infinite contradictions I could think of, and you weave them all together so perfectly, so seamlessly; the result is nothing less than exquisite.
the female ghost of tom joad: ILUjanie_tangerine on July 14th, 2009 11:34 pm (UTC)
Uh, well, THAT is a compliment! ♥ And oh dear, that has to be one of the best comments I ever received all my life. Thank you so much, I'm really thrilled that you liked it this much! ♥
jenthegypsy: LOST - SAWYER AND JULIETjenthegypsy on July 15th, 2009 01:55 pm (UTC)
Interesting look at the possible relationship between Sawyer and Of Mice and Men. I've always wondered why tptb took such pains to make Sawyer sound like an ignorant hick and paint him in such a negative light, yet made him so well read. Doesn't really make sense to me. Also interesting is how the poem from which Steinbeck took his title (and you, yours) relates to your story.

The poem is "To a Mouse, on Turning Her Up in Her Nest with the Plough" by Scotland's national bard, Robert Burns. That complete line is as follows:
The best-laid schemes o' mice an 'men
Gang aft agley,
An'lea'e us nought but grief an' pain,
For promis'd joy!

The best laid plans of mice and men often go awry, and leave us nothing but grief and pain when we were promised joy.

Sawyer, right?

Well done.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer OMGjanie_tangerine on July 24th, 2009 11:07 am (UTC)
First thing, sorry for being so late replying here but I had friends coming over until today and I couldn't find a minute to answer fic comments *hangs head in shame*. That said, I'm really glad you liked this! Sawyer never exactly struck me as the usual ignorant hick, but he is indeed well-read and they kind of don't push it, which is a pity imo. And yeah, I knew that poem and it was more or less the reason I stole the title from there and not from some book line. ;) Thanks so much!
elliotsmelliot: Sawyer glasseselliotsmelliot on July 19th, 2009 07:51 pm (UTC)
This was excellent! This was a wonderful literary analysis of Sawyer and Steinbeck. I loved Sawyer's reflections on idiots, pickets fences (and jail bars), and how the book has become its touchstone. I also really liked his explanation for how things happened with Juliet and how Ben's quote about lonliness echoes back to him. This fic is like what you did for Mozart and Desmond, but with Sawyer and Of Mice and Men. Just lovely!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer OMGjanie_tangerine on July 24th, 2009 11:09 am (UTC)
Aw, thanks so much! Ha, I had always wanted to write a Sawyer + Steinbeck story but I never got the right idea until now. I probably like too much the fact that he likes it, but Mice And Men is kind of a total Sawyer book, so I just went with it. The Juliet thing is really the only explanation I can give about how they'd end up together (in the end it didn't convince me much). And awwww, that was such a nice thing to say, thanks so much again! ♥
missy_useless: sawyermissy_useless on August 15th, 2009 07:48 pm (UTC)
What a wonderful use of Of Mice and Men, and what an intriguing fic. Great work, as per usual.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on August 15th, 2009 10:01 pm (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much! <3333