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12 January 2008 @ 11:32 pm
Fic, Lost: Something you're supposed to do (PG, Desmond) for [info]philosophy_20  
Ok, this isn't the one I finished the other day but one that came in, like, half an hour of inspiration kicking or something, but guess it's good enough for a warm up, right? ;)

Title: Something you're supposed to do
Characters: Desmond, mention of Locke, Charlie and Penny
Rating: PG, huh.
Disclaimer: Desmond is Darlton's. Or whoever. Not mine. Sadly. Sadly. Sadly.
Word count: 509
Summary: Desmond turns the failsafe key of the hatch. Re-telling of that 'Live Together Die Alone' scene, basically. For [info]philosophy_20 prompt #15, infinity.
A/N: Not much to say about this, really. One moment I was brainstorming on Aristotle and next one I had this little bunny. Then I fed him and here it is. Nothing canon hasn't said, but whatever ;)



It may have happened in three minutes or something close to it, but to Desmond, it was really slow motion. When he was running towards the bookshelf, he didn’t even register the fact that he was actually running. He could feel sweat trickling down all over his face and his shirt, which seemed to actually cling to his body. He barely noticed Charlie standing over there, while he took the rubber band away from Our Mutual Friend.

He was sure no more than two seconds had passed between the moment in which he took the key and the one in which he left the book there, kissing the key and feeling the metal against his lips. In those two seconds he managed to see that evening when he didn’t kill himself again, and really, three years before he could have never imagined to feel as grateful and as clear as he felt in that moment.

At least for once he knew what to do.

He rushed back to the computer room, the floor almost slippery and slightly trembling underneath his feet, then opened that other hatch and told Locke. Because he at least deserved to know that whatever the cause was for which he had screamed on the hatch door that night, it had been for a reason. Or something similar. Desmond really didn’t know the difference between those kind of concepts anymore. Reason, fate, purpose, whatever, it really was just the bloody same thing.

Maybe he should have told Locke sooner, he reasoned; if he did, maybe he’d have understood and maybe he wouldn’t need to do this.

But things had gone as they had gone and there really was just one way to fix it, wasn’t it?

He didn’t leave Locke the actual time to stop him, he really didn’t need someone to convince him that self-sacrifice or whatever he was going to do wasn’t the way to go. Desmond reasoned he might end up not doing it and that wasn’t an option. For once that you know what you’re supposed to do, shouldn’t you do it?

Desmond couldn’t hear a thing, when he opened the failsafe box.

He could only hear Penny’s voice as some tears came to his eyes. The idea that he was really never going to see her again was almost enough to stop him from doing this, but almost was the key word. He wasn’t ever going to see her again even if he didn’t do this. And better himself alone than... well, himself and everyone else, since it was also mainly his fault that they were there in the first place, wasn’t it?

I will wait for you. Always. I love you.

“I love you, Penny.”, he said, feeling salt slipping through his lips.

Then his hand reached forward, not trembling like it was doing before; he pulled the key in the lock, he turned it, and suddenly it wasn’t the hatch or himself or the key or anything anymore, but just the white, slightly colored in purple, of what, maybe, could have been infinity.

End.

 
 
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elliotsmelliot: des shirtless[info]elliotsmelliot on January 13th, 2008 01:49 am (UTC)
Ooh I like! I don't think most characters are seeing or even remembering their flashbacks when they appear to us but in this case that works really well. Everything from Locke to Penny is running through Desmond's head. His admittance that he should have told Locke sooner was classic but then he pushed back all other regrets when he turned the key. I also really liked the idea he thought he saw infinity.

1 down. 29 to go. And did I understand you correctly, this is not the one with your beta? Des has clearly taken over your mind. Maybe you should change your disclaimer. Maybe he is yours. Lucky girl.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost deeeees **[info]janie_tangerine on January 13th, 2008 08:32 am (UTC)
Thanks! I really hadn't planned on doing this prompt first but then the idea kicked in and I thought he most likely would have seen something like that, especially thinking that he was going to die. And luckily he didn't!

You did understand correctly. The one with my beta is one thing that was supposed to be four Word pages and grew to ten or eleven, if she manages to go through it I should have it ready this evening. And yes, he has definitely taken over, oh Des. I guess he'd feel safer being mine than Darlton's, he would have a so assured happy ending..
Shona[info]toestastegood on January 13th, 2008 02:03 am (UTC)
This was a really nice insight into what could have been going through Desmond's head at the time - I'm looking forward to seeing what else you write from the [info]philosophy_20 prompts. Do you mind if I friend you?
the female ghost of tom joad: lost jack/sawyer predefinite XD[info]janie_tangerine on January 13th, 2008 08:33 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! And I don't mind absolutely *goes to friend* ;)
bachlava: Desmond[info]bachlava on January 13th, 2008 03:33 am (UTC)
Oh, wow. What a perfect, gorgeous insight into Desmond's mind at that moment - excellent work!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost deeeees **[info]janie_tangerine on January 13th, 2008 08:35 am (UTC)
Thank you! This really was one of those bunnies that bite you out of the blue but I think I'm pleased with the outcome, so even more glad you liked it *blushes*
falafel_fiction: charlie&des[info]falafel_fiction on January 13th, 2008 05:38 pm (UTC)
Great glimpse into Desmond's thoughts during that moment! I love how you described it saying Des felt like everything was happening in slow motion and he was hardly aware of the hatch or the people around him. It was very atmospheric. Well done!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost deeeees **[info]janie_tangerine on January 13th, 2008 05:58 pm (UTC)
Well I'm definitely glad you liked it coming from a Des expert as you are! ;) And I could re-watch that part for getting into the frame of mind, which has definitely been a good thing. Thanks so much for reading!
Emily: desmond[info]emiliglia on September 9th, 2008 12:40 pm (UTC)
So much has happened these last 2 seasons that I'd completely forgotten about this moment and how gut-clenching it was with all the anxiety and wondering what was going to happen because of it. I think you captured it perfectly well, the stress of the situation, and yet Desmond is perfectly calm, collected during it - he knows what he has to do and why he has to do it. Wonderful!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost desmond GUH[info]janie_tangerine on September 9th, 2008 10:07 pm (UTC)
How nice to get feedback on this one ♥!

Well, I think there was the moment Desmond truly jumped all the positions on my chart. The moment I decided he could was actually the one in your icon ;), but that part is just so beautiful and selfless of him that I wanted to write it sometime. Glad you liked it, thanks again!