This = my fic for scifibigbang. [And I'm sort of using it also for another table. *cough*]

Title: Devil's Arcade
Art: totally awesome art by divka
Pairings: Desmond/Sayid (main), Jack/Sawyer, Boone/Charlie (both sort non-explicit but there); most canon (male) characters appear. Sawyer/Kate and Desmond/Penny are sort of referred to, but they're both backstory.
Word Count: 32800
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: The rating is not only for a sex scene, but I went for it mostly because since it's a war fic it gets very violent, there's some gore, a full battle description, probably touchy/triggering subjects and everything that goes with the setting. (Though it's not a death fic.)
Summary: WWII AU; Desmond and Sayid (plus Charlie and Sawyer) are British soldiers at El Alamein. This follows them and others (Jack, plus Boone) in their unit from 1942 until 1945 (and sort of later, too).
A/N: first of all, endless thanks to elliotsmelliot who did an awesome beta-ing job for this in a very short time and whose help was just priceless beyond any possible description. Thank you so much again for it. And to divka who did the awesome art and who had to stand my complete and utter failure-ness with PMs. Also, this is the result of brainstorming over one fic idea for a year and a half. I just hope it did end up being a good effort. ;) Also, title stolen from Springsteen. Yes, I know you were all totally NOT expecting it.

Prologues [England, Iraq]; Part I [El Alamein - first]; Part II [El Alamein - second]; Interlude I [Tunisia]; Part III [Italy - Sicily]; Interlude II [Italy]; Part IV [Italy - Cassino]; Part V [Italy - Rome]; Part VI [Italy - Rome and Reggio Emilia]; Epilogues [Paris and New York]; Notes and references and research post; art by divka

Apologizes in advance for the spamming. I have two ficlets for that meme and probably something else later when I'm done with Medieval Philosophy class.

Title: Your Ex-Lover Is Dead
Rating: R
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid (implied Desmond/Penny)
Words: 1694
Summary: Sayid still looks at him, his stare meaning nothing and everything; Desmond doesn’t know what he should do, maybe say strange to see you again, maybe let him go, but he doesn’t want to.
Spoilers: goes AU from 5x06, 316.
Disclaimer: haaa, no, not mine. Yeah, really.
A/N: for tellshannon815 who wanted wish for the alphabet meme and lostpicksix 13, chance encounter. I do realize that if this happened then everything that happened in S5 would be fucked up, but that's exactly why, frankly, I don't give a damn. Title stolen from Stars and yes, everything but a ficlet. *cough*

( What Desmond still feels as he makes his way back to the docks, is rage. )

Title: Nothing Left To Lose
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Word counting: 515
Disclaimer: not mine, it'd happen.
Summary: He lets Sayid do anything he wants because it's not like it even matters anymore.
A/N: written for the prompt up against the wall; using for lostpicksix #20, noncon even if this is actually more do-whatever-you-want-with-me-con. But it's as close as I'll come to it so I might use it as well. Warning: it's angsty and also kind of not exactly nice.

( He doesn't know when Sayid's eyes stopped being a dead man's eyes and became something else as they stood there. )

Title: It's Regret For The Things We Didn't Do That's Inconsolable
Rating: Pg13
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Word counting: 470
Disclaimer: not mine, it'd happen.
Summary: Regrets eat you alive.
A/N: written for the prompt regret; using for lostpicksix #29, lies.

( Sayid doesn’t know why he tells Desmond that maybe it’d be nice to have a talk in his cabin. Just because. )

Title: What Is and What Shouldn't Be
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Word counting: 1087
Disclaimer: not mine, it'd happen.
Summary: Sayid is aware of Desmond slowly undressing him, taking off every item slowly and carefully; he’s aware of cold fingers trailing across his chest, over his hips, across his legs, feathery touches that are amplified by his lack of vision and which are making him tremble and shiver all over, unable to help it.
A/N: written for the prompt blindfold; using for lostpicksix #35, fetish.

( If Sayid opens his eyes, the world is made of soft, luxurious dark violet satin. If he closes them, it’s just dark. )

God, why, why can't I write comment length stuff? But this kinda wanted to be written and since I have this feeling that tomorrow's episode will absolutely ditch the premise I wanted to have it posted before.

Title: We Three
Rating: hard R
Characters/Pairing: Desmond/Penny/Sayid in any possible combination
Word counting: 2246
Disclaimer: if Lost was mine... why. What the hell. This'd be canon.
Spoilers: for the S5 premiere.
Summary: Yes, Penny thinks, it’s insane.
A/N: written for the battle at lostsquee for the prompt stars. Using for lostpicksix #34, femslash, because erm, how am I supposed to write femslash with a m/m pairing otherwise? Title stolen from Patti Smith. Also, wandersfound? I don't remember if it was you with whom I was discussing an eventual Des/Pen/Sayid threesome ages ago but since I think you might not be adverse this is your surprise for that meme? ;)

( Sayid turned in order to get out, but then Desmond had said 'don’t' and Penny hadn’t exactly been surprised. )

Okay. This is the monster at last. I swear I did my best with it. I just hope I haven't messed stuff up here.

Title: None But The Brave
For: halfdutch for the lostsquee Lost Hohoho challenge.
Pairing: Jack/Boone, minor Sawyer/Cassidy and Desmond/Sayid, more or less everyone shows up
Rating: NC17
Prompt: Some kind of AU-ish thing where Jack's a cop. Possibly with Boone as a rookie cop under his wing? Hurt/comfort always a plus!
Disclaimer: Lost is surely not mine, any cop show I might have watched from which I took inspiration without probably meaning it is not mine, everything isn’t mine, we established it.
Word Count: wordcounter here says more than 19000.
Summary: Jack is a lieutenant in the LAPD, Boone a recently recruited officer with a pretty serious crush on his boss.
A/N: Well, the only excuse I have here for the length is that the plot happened. It just… grew and grew and then it became the monster it is. Every implausible thing that might be here is all my fault but I swear I did my research as thoroughly as possible. Also, halfdutch, I went with your first request but as per the other two, Gault has a role of some importance here and there’s some Sawyer/Cassidy. Title stolen from Springsteen as usual. As of warnings, well, there’s drug and prostitution talking and well, the usual that comes in police settings I guess. Using for un_love_you #3, this cancels out the hurt.

( See, the point is that he should have expected it to start with a poor figure. )

Forgive me the heavy load of stuff here but I swear it's all short stuff. And I guess it'll be the last post before I go so Merry Christmas meanwhile. ;)

Non Lost:

Title: Unchanging (Heroes/Supernatural crossover)
Pairing: John Winchester/Adam Monroe
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: Pff. Seriously. If Heroes was mine it'd be a way better show. And if SPN was mine JDM would appear as the monthly angel or something.
Word count: 517
Spoilers: the pilot for SPN and... well, if you know who Adam is, you're good.
Summary: His name was Adam and even if he had always considered their... well, their business either one of those crushes that comes one day and is gone the other or a way to avoid going definitely mad in that hell on earth, John had always remembered him clearly.
A/N: for toestastegood who 'forced' me on the meme down here.

( It’s not like he’s having a drink with a total stranger because the man is not a total stranger. )

Title: Brokeback
Pairing: faaaaaint Tim/Jason
Rating: PG?
Disclaimer: Friday Night Lights is not mine. Especially because if it was they wouldn't have done what they did and I'd be watching it regularly, not trying to gather the courage to catch up.
Word count: 386
Spoilers: the Brokeback episode. ;)
Summary: He isn’t sure the position means anything but that handful of words does, it does so much, especially after all that happened what seems ages ago and what happened just now.
A/N: for lasamy who 'forced' me on the meme down here. ♥ First time I write FNL ever. God. Go me.

( Well, yeah, might be so Brokeback but he wouldn’t ever renounce this. )

Lost:

Title: Disadvantages Occurring When You Start Naming Too Many Stars
Characters: Karl, who's having sort of a bit of a crush on Sawyer.
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: Lost is nooot mine. Canon wouldn't have happened.
Word count: 517
Spoilers: If Lost was mine, what Did Not Happen wouldn't have happened.
Summary: Karl is also sure he looks like an idiot whenever he’s around him. The worst thing is that Alex kind of joked about it once and said he didn’t have bad taste.
A/N: For bachlava who did asked for one of the sane family in another meme. by the way, what Did Not Happen Does Not Happen after this. ;) the title is mine for once. Shows because it's horrible.

( Okay, so, Karl doesn’t have an idea of what is happening. Not-at-all. )

Title: The Man In Black Fled Across The Desert
Characters: Sawyer
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine, The Dark Tower isn't either.
Word count: 319
Spoilers: ppf, nothing? Well, the first two lines of the first Dark Tower book aren't a spoiler. I hope.
Summary: Sawyer doesn’t like Stephen King. Correction: Sawyer hates Stephen King.
A/N: for thespiansparkle who asked for a drabble too and gets this because I thought it was a good idea.

( He thinks that maybe he should check the plot on the back cover. But then again, why? That’d be no surprise, right? )

Title: Whirl Away
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Rating: light NC17
Disclaimer: This is me being hopeful. Of course Lost isn't mine.
Word count: 647
Spoilers: S4 finale.
Summary: He isn't doing this just because he's so desperate that he'll take any kind of comfort that brings his mind away from the real world, but also because they have been sharing the cabin for a week and Sayid has barely given a sign of acknowledging he's here at all.
A/N: originally for sassynach for that trick and treat fic post. Using for lostpicksix #2, kissing. Title stolen from Patti Smith.

( It happens in a second or something like it. )

Title: Here I Go And I Don't Know Why
Pairing: Boone/Claire
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Ha, Lost is not mine. What news.
Word count: 749
Spoilers: White Rabbit? Is that a spoiler?
Summary: It starts the day when he apologizes to her for the water. He’s really sorry and absolutely ashamed and the way Arzt looks at him when he says he’s sorry surely doesn’t make things easier.
A/N: for lenina20 who 'forced' me on the meme down here. ♥ Using for un_love_you #11, Thought I needed this. Uhm, did I really finally tried the pairing? Title stolen from Patti Smith.

( If there’s one thing Boone Carlyle is incapable of doing, is saying no (especially when you’re a girl, you’re a blonde and with a completely different attitude from his sister’s, but Claire doesn’t know this and it doesn’t matter anyway, since the other thing about Boone Carlyle is that he always does what he does sincerely). )

Title: Revenge Is A Kind of Wild Justice
Pairing: Boone/Shannon
Rating: light R
Disclaimer: It should be clear that Lost isn't mine.
Word count: 580
Spoilers: In Traslation maybe?
Summary: She wants him to hate her because it’s not fair that she needs to hate him and and he just doesn’t get it. She needs someone to have her revenge on and since she won’t ever get any on Sabrina, it’s got to be him. Even if he doesn’t really have much of a fault.
A/N: uhm, this one is for me I guess, because I like myself Boone angst. ;) ;) seriously, I wrote it in class, has been sitting for a while and since I was having the ficlet dump.. using for un_love_you #16, I want to break you. Title stolen from some Francis Bacon quote. I'm not worthy.

( Then they crash and she realizes that nothing has changed really, because he still loves her anyway like the hopeless moron he is, except that now he’s beyond any repair. )

Oh wow. That was hard. Okay, I'm done. ;)

And I finally managed to copy one of the ficlets. Go me really ;)

Title: Shades of Gray
Rating: PG13
Pairing: sort of Desmond/Sayid
Words: 1250
Summary: He had his certainty, that there wasn’t anything outside black or white; now Desmond is trying to take it away from him and he can’t have it. Not really. He can’t afford to think in shades of gray just right now.
Spoilers: up to the S4 finale.
Disclaimer: not mine. Woah, that's some news.
A/N: for lostpicksix, holding hands, and lostfichallenge, light and dark. I fear it's not a very original interpretation of the theme but that's as good as I could get. No plot whatsoever really, but who needs plot?

( Sayid has known for a while that he really isn’t a good man. Not anymore, at least. )

My dearest elliotsmelliot, this one should actually get posted tomorrow because it's sort of your birthday present from yours truly, but since I don't know whether tomorrow morning I'll manage to be on enough to post fic and you'll read it then anyway, have it in advance ;) and yes, it's exactly what you think. And no, I don't think I forgot anything. I sincerely hope you like it and that you get the most awesome birthday. ♥

Title: Come Fly With Me
Rating: Nc17 or sorts of
Pairings/Characters: Desmond/Sayid, hints of Charlie/Claire and Sawyer/Kate plus pre-Jack/Boone; then pretty much everyone, Scott, Steve and Mikhail included.
Word Count: 5900
Disclaimer: Read the summary. Do you think that Lost is mine?
Summary: Desmond and Sayid are pilots for Constant Airlines, owned by Hurley, and fly a plane where cookies baked by Claire are served; Juliet, Boone and Shannon are flight attendants, Richard owns the rival company Maybelline Airlines and Sawyer owns a bookshop in Dharma Airport, where life is never really boring. Especially when Frank owns the bar and two incapable terrorists leave around bombs that don't explode.
Spoilers: People, this is as AU as it gets. I'd say really no spoilers.
A/N: birthday fic for elliotsmelliot, who is equally responsible as I am for its birth, since all of this spread out in a very insane conversation in her journal two months ago (and the title is hers, not mine ;) ). The setting and the roles are all born of common brainstorming and if I added something isn't really pivotal. If something doesn't work, it's my fault ;) using it for lostpicksix #25, passion. And now I'll go finish packing.

( Passengers of Maybelline Airlines flight 108, please board now. I repeat, Maybelline Airlines 108 is boarding now. All the passengers, please reach gate 8. )

Thank Jacob for catch-up days. I might try to catch up with the only other Queen I missed today, if I get the inspiration.

Title: In Repair
Rating: PG13 to be sure
Pairing: very platonic Desmond/Sayid
Words: 2400
Summary: He doesn’t wait for permission and sits next to Sayid on the couch, placing the ice cream bowl in front of him on the small table; he almost wants to laugh when Sayid turns his head and looks at him with a completely surprised expression that Desmond didn’t even think him capable of doing. Sayid didn’t seem one that could get surprised by many things, after all.
Spoilers: up to the S4 finale.
Disclaimer: ha, not mine. I doubt it'll end so well for both of them.
A/N: queen astra2104 at lostsquee asked for ice, for which I tried like, three different plots but wouldn't work. Then I had the idea and it wanted to be for my second closeted OTP, which I hope the Queen will enjoy nonetheless ;) using for lostpicksix #22, domestic bliss, even if it's a very twisted domestic bliss. Title stolen from John Mayer and I swear it took more to find it than to write the whole thing.

( Desmond still is kind of surprised that Sayid has accepted to go and stay with him for at least that month when he asked, after they were back from the island for good. )

This thing makes me so nervous. So really nervous.

Title: Rear Window
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Rating: light NC17 I guess, or very hard R
Disclaimer: well, if this ever happened on that show it means that I'd write for it. Which is not the case.
Word count: 1200
Spoilers: General S4 and maybe for Eggtown specifically, but as long as you've seen Ji Yeon you're safe.
Summary: The visions in the Further Instructions airport are usually showing reality, right?
A/N: using for lostpicksix #14, voyeur. Now, this thing is all elliotsmelliot's fault ♥. She got the image into my head and I couldn't shake it away. And it wanted to be sort of smut so it is. Not that I feel comfortable at sex without plot still, but well, it should be at least decent. I hope. I wanted to call it Even Further Instructions at first but then I settled for having Hitchcock and James Stewart killing me again in the afterlife. And now I guess it won't haunt my dreams anymore ;)

( He sees them first when they appear on the top of the escalator, slowly making their way down. )