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27 April 2011 @ 12:53 am
fic(let), SPN: and my electric surges free (Dean/Castiel), pg  
Title: and my electric surges free
Characters/Pairings: Dean/Castiel
Word count: ∼1170
Rating: PG
Spoilers: let's pretend that S6 is over, they got a clue and hooked up, Cas decided to stay on Earth while still being an angel and they lived happily ever after, shall we? But apart from this pretense, nothing specific.
Warnings: none.
Summary: wherein they live together and they're doing something very mundane, and then Castiel's true form finds a way out. It's not a bad thing at all.
A/N: this was written for a meme and was supposed to be a drabble, then it got longer than I thought and I figured I'd just post it in one piece. xiaou_xijiang asked for Dean/Cas, either with true form!Cas or domestic AU where they're just being cute. I tried to do both. I just hope I pulled it off. ;) using for my kissbingo emotion: happiness square. Title from Bruce Springsteen.

You’re totally free not to believe it, but it’s not like Dean can change the embarrassing fact that the first time he sees Cas’s true form they are washing dishes.

Or better: Cas was washing and he was drying. It still doesn’t change the ridiculousness of the fact. It should have been this great moment full of meaning, a pivotal step in their miraculously surviving all odds relationship. Something they actually had discussed and agreed on before actually trying to see if Dean could stand it. It shouldn’t have been an accident due to the fact that Dean had bought a new random ecological stupid soap for the dishes because the one he usually got was out of stock.

Not like Dean would ever admit to a living soul that he kind of really likes this whole doing dishes together thing. It’s nice to just stand next to Cas, their hips touching more often than not, wet hands brushing whenever Cas hands him a dish or glass, a comfortable silence between them. And do it every night. It’s a routine he’s grown to appreciate.

And really, who knew that there was some stupid mineral in that soap which angels can’t touch while in their vessels. Who knew that such a thing was even possible – later, Castiel will tell him that an angel being forced out of their vessel by simple contact with a substance was a first. It had never happened before them, or at least as far as he knew. Figures, Dean will think, of course. With their life history it just make sense that it’d happen to them first and no one else.

Anyway, that’s not the point. It goes like this: one second Cas is standing close to him and the next he’s dropping the dish in his hands into the sink. It shatters into pieces as Cas’s fingers starts to shake, and Dean doesn’t even have time to ask what’s wrong.

“Close – close your eyes,” Cas blurts out, and Dean sees light exploding behind Cas’s eyelids, filtering through his skin, and then the kitchen’s lamp explodes and cracks appear on the windows’ glass. And Dean is about to do it, except –

He hadn’t closed his eyes when he stuck a sword into Zachariah, had he? And will he ever get a chance to see Cas’s true form again, since Cas never wanted to try in order not to risk blinding him even if Dean has asked a number of times?

Well, Dean never was one to let good chances go to waste, and he doesn’t close his eyes.

And Cas’s body disappears, engulfed by light, but – it doesn’t really hurt to look at it. It fills up the entire room and possibly beyond it, and when Dean finally manages to breathe he’s surrounded by it. But – it’s not just light. It’s not just white shiny ethereal matter. It pulses and glows, a different color whenever Dean moves his head. It’s – wow. He doesn’t even have words for it. And then that light sort of closes around him, almost – almost cradling him? It is coming into contact with him, even if gingerly. It feels warm, though, and not like he’s suffocating.

“Cas?”

You can see me.

It’s not a question.

“Uh. Yeah. Guess so. You’re – you weren’t lying when you said you were as tall as the Chrysler building, huh?”

I am merely occupying space as I can, but no, I wasn’t lying, Dean.

“Or you’d knock down the roof? Woah.” Dean looks at his left, red hues dancing along that still-pulsing light, and then they shift into blue and then into gold.

“You’re – you’re something, Cas. Even if – pretty elusive. I guess.”

If he raises his hands, it feels like he’s putting his hand in a bundle of electricity, even if it barely tingles.

I think there might be a remedy to that, Cas (though he should probably say Castiel now, right?) answers, and – his true voice is weird. It’s nothing like a human voice but Dean can hear words even if he couldn’t describe how it sounds.

And then he sees the light shifting, shaping itself, and suddenly a hand appears out of it, pulsing silver – and it touches Dean’s shoulder.

Dean’s breath is caught in his throat but before he can try to put a name to the warmth erupting inside his chest, another hand-shaped bundle of light touches his cheek, holding it up almost gingerly.

“You can – woah, this is –”

We can shape ourselves as we wish.

“So basically your true form is – not having one?”

Put in very crude terms, but essentially, yes, Castiel answers, and then Dean sees the bare traits of a face appearing – but a face he can’t describe, it’s barely cheeks and a chin, and then – oh. He stands still, so perfectly still, as he sees a mouth take shape as well. It’s a bare sketch of lips, and the light around him pulses faster as that mouth touches Dean’s. It does feel like electricity – it tingles and sends shivers along Dean’s spine, but – Dean can taste even if he’s the only one with a tongue. It’s just – it tastes like everything good he has ever eaten in his entire life put together, and like all the times he has felt good in his entire life, it tastes good in a way that he can only think of as absolute, and it lasts for maybe two seconds but Dean is breathless when it’s over.

He doesn’t realize that he’s crying until he feels salt on his lips.

And then the light becomes brighter for a second before retreating and dimming itself, and shrinking back into what seems a proper human body. Dean has to close his eyes for a handful of seconds, but when he opens them again there are human hands on his face brushing away stupid tears, and blue eyes looking up at him, and a small smile curving the corner of Cas’s lips upward.

Dean doesn’t even know what to say and so he reaches up a hand, tangling his fingers in Cas’s hair, and he kisses him for real, long and thorough and leaving them breathless. Cas tastes of that burger they had for dinner rather than whatever it was before, but as amazing as the experience has been, he can’t help welcoming back the familiarity of Cas’s human body.

Even if it still was fucking amazing.

“So you can just – take a random shape, when you’re – well, you?” Dean asks when they part, whispering it against Cas’s lips.

“In theory,” Cas replies. “But Dean, this is me now.”

There are things you just can’t answer in words. And now that Dean is sure about being able to stand the sight of an angel’s true form, he’s totally going to ask Cas if they can do that again. Sometime soon. But for now Dean leans forward and kisses Cas again, and again, and if the dishes are still dirty, they can wait.

End.
 
 
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the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural dean/cas tie fixingjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 08:15 am (UTC)
It's usually a hit or miss for me as well because it depends on how the true form looks like, so I figured I could just have it looking like nothing in particular. ;) Thanks so very much! I'm so glad that it worked for you. I had my fun with it. And yeah, I'll never not like Dean being domestic and actually liking it.
Kevin Jonesmulder200 on April 27th, 2011 12:25 am (UTC)
You’re totally free not to believe it, but it’s not like Dean can change the embarrassing fact that the first time he sees Cas’s true form they are washing dishes.

*snort*

And I love your description of TrueFromCas! He is both otherworldly and also still the Cas that Dean knows and love.

Awesome!
the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural + nick cave = otpjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 08:16 am (UTC)
Poor Dean, always in embarrassing situations. ;) Thanks so much, it's awesome to know it worked for you! :D
abbylover23: OTP get closer bbabbylover23 on April 27th, 2011 12:53 am (UTC)
oh god this was beautiful. just, wonderful. i adored the description of Castiel's true form with the red hues and ethereal matter and the way the colours shift and oh i just loved it!

bonus love for the Srpingsteen usage, For You will now always make me think of the boys ♥

Edited at 2011-04-27 12:54 am (UTC)
the female ghost of tom joad: bruce for youjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 08:17 am (UTC)
Aw thanks so very much! I'm so glad that the true form I went for worked for you. I'm not too big on angels' true forms being proper -forms- so I just figured I'd go for one that could be adaptable. ;)

Also the last stanza of that song is so D/C it hurts if you ask me. ;)
the only water in the forest is the river: [spn] dean/castiel | angel marriednyoka on April 27th, 2011 12:56 am (UTC)
Oh, this was lovely ♥
the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural dean/cas philosophyjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 08:18 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! ♥
pages of poetry locked behind my eyescity_of_words on April 27th, 2011 12:57 am (UTC)
Gosh, I don't think I realized how much I needed some happy dean/cas in my life. (The crushing angst of this ship of late... I love it, but this was a welcome change.). Sweet and quiet, and it fulfilled my daily true!form fic requirement.
the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural + nick cave = otpjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 08:18 am (UTC)
I know? With the angst fest of lately I realized I really wanted to write some happy stuff too. I'm so glad you liked it, thank you! :D
joy: d/c » just call on me and i'll send itjoyyjpg on April 27th, 2011 01:24 am (UTC)
*blink*

*blink*

*DIES*

Your aweomse, domestic bubble here is just -- I'm going to crawl inside it and die a very happy death. These two and this fic and you. So. Much. Love. ♥
the female ghost of tom joad: ILUjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 08:19 am (UTC)
*hands fan and revives* thaaank you so very much! :DDD it's awesome to know it worked for you. And those two can be so very sweet, can't they? ;)
uneclochette: laugh. misha}uneclochette on April 27th, 2011 04:56 am (UTC)
*WIDE EYES WITH LOVE* ohmygosh, this is the loveliest thing ♥
I want to stay in this fic forever, it's so pretty, wah~
the female ghost of tom joad: peace!janie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 08:20 am (UTC)
Aw, thank you! ♥ I'm so glad that you liked it. And please stay in it as much as you please. ;)
latvela: castiel's pretty handlatvela on April 27th, 2011 05:39 am (UTC)
Fics about Cas in his true form don't usually do it for me, since I have an insane attachment to blue-eyed, fine-featured Jimmy!Cas, but I love this! I can really imagine him in all his shimmery, otherworldly, multidimensional Chrysler Buildingness while still remaining Cas.

“So you can just – take a random shape, when you’re – well, you?” Dean asks when they part, whispering it against Cas’s lips.

“In theory,” Cas replies. “But Dean, this is me now.”


Aww! So well done. I really enjoyed this!
the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural castiel #2janie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 08:21 am (UTC)
For me they're a hit or miss because I'm not too fond of the ideas of angels having a fixed true form but at the same time I don't like it if they look human either, so it's awesome to know this one worked for you. (And I might be too attached to the regular Cas myself. ;) ) But I really like this other idea about Cas's true form being a multidimensional Chrysler-building sized entity. ;) thanks so very much, I'm so glad that you liked it!
Giulia: Spn_DeanCas_have eaten my braine0wyn on April 27th, 2011 08:31 am (UTC)
<3

It had never happened before them, or at least as far as he knew. Figures, Dean will think, of course. With their life history it just make sense that it’d happen to them first and no one else.

Stupenda, in particolare mi è piaciuto molto il passaggio sopra :) E il titolo <3 <3
the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural + nick cave = otpjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 11:03 pm (UTC)
Grazie mille! ;) <3333 e eeeh, povero Dean, mai che gli vada come spera. ;) e c'è un motivo per cui amo Springsteen. Fornisce ottimi titoli XDD
Geaven: SPN - Superman wears Castiel pyjamasgeaven on April 27th, 2011 09:21 am (UTC)
And really, who knew that there was some stupid mineral in that soap which angels can’t touch while in their vessels.

Sounds like some sort of anti-climax, after believing that, if Dean ever saw Cas's true form, it would be some awesome, impressive moment. ;)

Loved the idea of Cas's true form being some kind of light which he could shape into whatever he wanted, and turning into a humanoid form (and that choice of wording made me look lika a Star Trek freak). Very nicely done. :)
the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural castieljanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 11:05 pm (UTC)
Oh it totally was supposed to feel like that. ;)

thank you for reading, I'm so glad that it worked for you! :D and hee, I do like true form fics but I'm still not totally convinced that it should be a -proper- form, so it's lovely to hear you liked that take on it. :D thanks again!
Linsey: Dean/Cas: husband/wifepyjamagurl on April 27th, 2011 11:24 am (UTC)
Awww this is so very lovely!

I love the domesticity of it, it's nice that they get quiet moments and I rather adore how you did the true!form Cas, I think it works very well (and I haven't read much, if any, trueform Cas stories...) and I love that it all happened by accident xD

Wonderful <3
the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural dean/cas <3janie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 11:07 pm (UTC)
Thanks so very much! :D

When I got the two prompts I kind of really wanted to try to do both so it's great to know that it worked for you. :) I did read my share of true form half and I'm usually hit or miss with it, so it's great to know my take worked for you. And ha, well, it'd be just Dean's life that it happens by accident, wouldn't it? ;)
malcolm_doylemalcolm_doyle on April 27th, 2011 11:53 am (UTC)
This is so beautiful in such a simple way. Loved it.
the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural dean sam genjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 11:08 pm (UTC)
thanks so very much! I'm so glad that you liked it. :)
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the female ghost of tom joad: !!! <3janie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 11:18 pm (UTC)
Oh dear that sounds insane O__O I hope that by now you got some sleep/rest/anything because wow. I'd have passed at hour twenty at most. ;) and eeee thank you so much! :DD it's awesome to know it worked. and heee I really wanted to see if I managed to smish those prompts together so it's awesome to know you liked it <333 thanks again!

and you know Dean loves dishes. ;)

Edited at 2011-04-27 11:18 pm (UTC)
aerilexaerilex on April 27th, 2011 05:00 pm (UTC)
OMG WOW.

I like the way you describe Castiel's true form. It's actually sort of what I pictured myself. :D

And the moment was utterly Dean-and-Cas, and you narrated it beautifully.
the female ghost of tom joad: tangerinesjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 11:10 pm (UTC)
it's great to know the true form worked for you, it's good to know it's at least two of us. ;) I'm so glad that you liked it, thanks so much!
getting the chocolate in the peanut butter: spn: castiel: in love with deandotfic on April 27th, 2011 10:06 pm (UTC)
Domestic Dean and Cas and true-form Castiel in one fic! Vivid and sweet. <3
the female ghost of tom joad: supernatural dean/cas third manjanie_tangerine on April 27th, 2011 11:09 pm (UTC)
Much glad you liked it, thank you! :DD ♥