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20 March 2008 @ 01:47 pm
Fic, Lost: Can't Get It Out Of My Head (Jack/Boone), R  
Duh, having your OTP as the challenge was hard. I don't think I have a Lost OTP that I write most of the others (maybe a one true character in this case...) mostly because my favorites usually die and whether I chose one, it'd probably get slain sooner or later. Mostly because the closest I had to a OTP is/was Jack/Boone and well, proves the point. This one was originally a comment snippet for the prompt alemyrddin gave me here, but I thought it was worth expanding some and so I went with it.

Title: Can't Get It Out Of My Head
Characters/Pairing: Jack/Boone
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Not mine. I mean, it'd be an alive pairing if they were mine.
Word count: around 700
Summary: Every adjective you could use to describe a drug, Jack thinks, you could use to describe Boone, too.
Spoilers: General season 1 until Do No Harm.
A/N: for 12_stories, prompt #5, passion; entering also for lostfichallenge #68, write your OTP. They're probably the closest I have to one really. And it's all based off comparisons with drugs, though there really isn't nothing graphic with both the comparisons and the sex altogether. Title stolen from an ELO song but as usual, the song has nothing to do with this. I can't come up with titles.

Every adjective you could use for a drug, Jack thinks, you could use for Boone, too.

Every drug is addictive by its very nature; the first kiss, which had happened after that whole inhalers mess, was sweet and slow and Boone's lips were soft and full under Jack's; Jack could only think that he wanted more, much more, that kissing definitely wasn’t enough.

Drugs often manage to mesmerize you and staring in the blue depths of Boone's eyes is nothing short of hypnotic.

Sometimes Jack thinks he could do it all day and never get tired; he had never seen eyes so big, never of a purer and clearer shade of blue. They say what Boone’s voice doesn’t and Jack isn’t usually one for reading between the lines, but in this case, he appreciates being able to do so.

When you take drugs, the immediate reaction is pleasure: Boone’s skin is always hot under Jack's hands.

The first time they have sex is in Jack’s infirmary cave after the first day of that golf tournament and Jack can remember every second of it, from the first time they kissed in a rush to the way Boone tasted, fresh and bittersweet.

He can remember how he had thought God he knows what he’s doing before blacking out while Boone was slowly sucking him off and the heat, the rush and that blissful sensation of nothingness while Boone’s legs were around his waist and they were coming at the same time.

Drugs are dangerous when you get too much of them; apart from the fact that Jack can’t place the darkened expression that comes across Boone’s face when he talks about his sister and that he doesn’t like this business he and Locke are having, he often finds his attention to supposedly most important things wavering because he ends up thinking about it.

Once he almost gives Sawyer the wrong dose of painkillers for the arm and every time he has to fix a sprained ankle or give his advice for rashes or whatever, he’s only really thinking about what the hell is Boone doing out there.

Boone has got a certain charm to him, even if he should be way too young for Jack to think about it in the terms he actually does think about him.

But drugs are also something you shouldn't have and that you shouldn’t take.

For how much Jack can reason that this is really not right, he always ends up thinking that the whole situation they’re in is completely insane. He can’t help keeping on doing this because he realizes that he treasures what is between him and Boone even if he can’t give it a name.

Maybe he could say that there’s passion and hey, one can’t help it when there is. Saying that it’s one of the less insane things that have happened to him since the crash may be a bit of a stretch, but he has to admit that the only times he actually gets some rest and just enjoys himself, are when he’s with Boone.

So Jack just doesn't care and every time he looks straight in Boone’s eyes, or every time they kiss or every time they have sex is nothing short than a rush of adrenaline through his body and it really can’t compare to any drug he can think of.

Drugs can kill you when you quit them, even if the drugs don’t quit you.

Boone quits him and forces Jack to quit when he dies under his hands, Jack feeling helpless as he’s never felt in his life. The fact that Boone was the one to ask him to let go isn’t really a consolation of any kind and when he closes his eyes, his guts turn and he can’t help crying.

Once he had cried when he found out he fixed his soon-to-be wife, but then, it was happiness; now, it’s just the deepest despair because it feels like quitting cold turkey, indeed.

After it happens, Jack finds that the abstinence crisis is much harder to overcome than he could ever have thought.


feeling: okayokay
on rotation: under african skies - paul simon
falafel_fiction: penny tearsfalafel_fiction on March 20th, 2008 01:11 pm (UTC)
Wow. This is probably my first Jack/Boone but they are a perfect pairing. Firstly they are one of those rare believably gay couples which gives them an edge. I can always imagine Jack being a little closetted and Boone (like his sister) wanting an older man to take care of him. I loved your imagery of Boone being like a drug which Jack must quit cold turkey. I got a rush over Boone sucking Jack off until he blacks out. Gods frigging gift to humanity indeed!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost boone *sigh*janie_tangerine on March 20th, 2008 01:20 pm (UTC)
Yay, glad I gave you a good first time! I can only agree with everything you said there. Until Boone disappeared with Locke they had some lovely moments together and I always thought they'd have made an absurdly nice couple and that they had kind of complementing personalities, not clashing ones [not talking about the pens scene... rocky start ;)]. And so I went like wow, they can totally be my OTP and then, Do No Harm *shrugs hating that episode*. Anyway, thank you so much, glad you liked it! And yeah, he's god's friggin' gift to humanity, indeed! If they only kept him around... ;)
alemyrddin: Jack seatalemyrddin on March 20th, 2008 01:39 pm (UTC)
heee! Glad to know my prompt was so inspiring!
I already told you I loved the first version of this, but I think I like this one even more.
I like in particular how you expanded on this part
Drugs can kill you when you quit them, even if they drugs don’t quit you.
beautiful, even if painful. :)
the female ghost of tom joad: lost jack play doctorjanie_tangerine on March 20th, 2008 01:46 pm (UTC)
LOL your prompt definitely was one of the best of the whole bunch! IDK why but that one felt like it was missing something or that it could have been improved with more space and so I just caught the occasion. Much glad you liked also version #2! And the last part.. *sighs and mourns* I'll just accept it one day.. maybe ;)
Emily: boone/jackemiliglia on March 20th, 2008 02:36 pm (UTC)
My love for Jack/Boone is endless.

So sad but, damn it, they're so good together! I liked the comparison between their relationship and drug addiction... Sometimes it comes across as cheesy but with the painful ending and all I thought it worked very well.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost team pens!janie_tangerine on March 20th, 2008 02:42 pm (UTC)
*fills up with glee at finding another Jack/Boone shipper*

Thank you so much! They really were too good together and if there is another thing for which I loathe canon is that they killed the pairing indeed :/ *sighs and cries over Boone again* glad that you thought it worked! ♥
elliotsmelliot: jackelliotsmelliot on March 20th, 2008 02:50 pm (UTC)
I could really get behind being addicted to Boone. And the end, gah. Poor Boone and poor Jack. Like it wasn't it enough just to think of that scene as doctor/patient. Now as an OTP it is just awful. No wonder Jack went after Locke the next day and there was no option for him to ask Locke three times for the source of his addiction.

Sometimes Jack thinks he could do it all day and never get tired; he had never seen eyes so big, never of a purer and clearer shade of blue. They say what Boone’s voice doesn’t and Jack isn’t usually one for reading between the lines, but in this case, he’s appreciates being able to do so.

This was wonderful Jack characterization.

the female ghost of tom joad: lost boone *sigh*janie_tangerine on March 20th, 2008 03:00 pm (UTC)
You tell me... *sighs* *resists the temptation to fish out the S1 dvds* word about the torture that Do No Harm was for me. It was bad enough as it was even without shipping them, but when it was over.. it's still the Lost episode that hurts me in the worst possible ways. Probably that's why Jack gets a free pass with me with everything he does, I think I've never felt so close to a Lost character in three series than how I felt close to Jack in the Do No Harm/The Greater Good couplet. No wonder he went after Locke, indeed. Apart from my issues with that, it's great to know you liked how I voiced Jack here, I haven't written him much yet and so I'm glad to hear he comes across right. Thank you so much for the awesome feedback, glad you liked it! ♥

Edited at 2008-03-20 03:01 pm (UTC)
cate: Jack attack! - Lostenamors on March 20th, 2008 03:27 pm (UTC)
Squee! *flails* Yay Jack/Boone! I can't get enough of the stuff. And this is fantastic. Your concept for the fic is so original, I love it! Now I really, really miss Boone again.

Keep up the good work! :)
the female ghost of tom joad: lost boone *sigh*janie_tangerine on March 20th, 2008 06:49 pm (UTC)
*goes into flattered mode* thank you so much indeed ♥! Those two together were just awesome. *sighs* *misses Boone* Hell, can't he do like Charlie and show up in Jack's flashforwards? Now, I'd be looking even more forward to them ;)

And I owe at least another one! Though I really want to write those two more.
Laura: JACK 4elise_509 on March 20th, 2008 06:31 pm (UTC)
Yay Jack/Boone! I love fics that explore that possible relationship. Because of how intense things were between Boone and Jack when Jack was trying to save his life and how much it affected Jack, I've always been interested in fics that back that up with a love and physical relationship. The simile here equating Boone with drugs is a good one, especially at the end when Jack is forced to go without. Wonderful work!
the female ghost of tom joad: lost jack **janie_tangerine on March 20th, 2008 07:07 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I love this pairing really (I think I had started to think they'd have made a good ship at the pens part in the pilot, go me for starting to set people up after twenty minutes or so..) and I always find myself kind of overwhelmed when I think about how things were during the whole Do No Harm/Greater Good couplet (not that I didn't love Jack before, I did, but he won me over in those two episodes for good). Glad you liked the simile and definitely more than happy that you liked this, thanks again! ♥
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the female ghost of tom joad: lost sawyer *g*janie_tangerine on March 20th, 2008 09:44 pm (UTC)
*blushes* Thank you so much!

And well, if there's one thing that makes me accomplished is when I manage to get Boone some love, it's never enough ;) I think also that Jack was probably shaken up mostly by Boone dying, I don't think he ever was so shaken for a death after, though I really wish I was able to write them some nice fluff fic for once but alas, not this round. My poor Jack, my poor man and my poor, doomed OTP *sighs*. Okay, stopping before I start with the rant ;) I'm really so glad you liked it, thanks so much again! ♥
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the female ghost of tom joad: lost boone bondagejanie_tangerine on March 20th, 2008 10:24 pm (UTC)
Thanks! First try with the pairing, sort of. Or at least first serious try, so glad to know it worked!

I'd stick to Jack/Boone since jointed names have kind of terrible effects on my mental health but YEAAAH FTW indeed! It still is my OTP for a reason *cries* ;) thanks again, glad you liked it!
teamane: Lost2teamane on March 20th, 2008 11:47 pm (UTC)
I'm very happy that you have joined this pairing. This fic is so lovely and so sad. It's great, lol.

Welcome to Jack/Boone pairing at the comm. I hope you'll write more fics about them.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost team pens!janie_tangerine on March 25th, 2008 12:36 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! I'm definitely planning on more... hell, they were my OTP right? ;) ♥
a geek in such the wrong way: pol-ianhaldoor on March 21st, 2008 11:53 am (UTC)
I'm liking this very much. I think Jack/Boone was one of the obvious pairings early on, and this captures it very well.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost boone *sigh*janie_tangerine on March 25th, 2008 12:38 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! It definitely was the first one I was seeing and alas, I kind of loved them together. Thanks again, thanks for reading!
Just another slash fangirl: new jack e boonexenasoul on March 22nd, 2008 06:39 am (UTC)
Wow...so sad at the ending; but loved it all the same:)
I hope you write more about this pairing...
the female ghost of tom joad: lost team pens!janie_tangerine on March 25th, 2008 12:39 am (UTC)
I just wish I could write them some fluff without acknowledging Do No Harm *sighs* but thanks so much, glad you liked it! ♥
Colette-O-Tron: hometowncolacancol on March 22nd, 2008 10:50 am (UTC)
I really loved the way you compared his Boone addiction to a drug addiction *hearts* Because that's what love is like... Jack/Boone isn't a pairing I've ever read into much, but this has helped convince me that despite their small screentime, the personalities really compliment each other...

What can I say... I'm a huge fan of both Locke/Boone and Jack/Locke, so this just completes a love triangle!

Great fic ^_^
the female ghost of tom joad: lost locke! **janie_tangerine on March 25th, 2008 12:40 am (UTC)
They definitely did ;) I had totally a soft spot for them. Probably because Jack looked like the sanest alternative to squish Boone with ;) thank you so much, glad you liked it! And yeah, addiction indeed. *sighs* and Jack/Locke is a pairing I'd love to read ;)
Cleo: get it backcleuchi on March 23rd, 2008 08:28 pm (UTC)
There's not much I can say about the fic. It took my breath as I was reading it. I loved the comparation between drugs and Boone all the way, and the last paragraphs -the ones talking about Boone's death, poor boy- were absolutely heartbreaking.

Btw, I'm also a Jack/Boone shipper, but I never manage to find good fics about them x3.

Wonderful job! ♥
the female ghost of tom joad: lost team pens!janie_tangerine on March 25th, 2008 12:42 am (UTC)
Now you're really flattering me, thank you so much! ♥ That comparison came to me as soon as I saw the prompt, he really is addictive *sighs* and damnit, I always find myself tearing up when I reference his death, probably I still didn't overcome it. Blame me ;) thank you so much again, definitely glad you liked it! And Jack/Boone needs shippers ♥
faran1078: DZBfaran1078 on March 24th, 2008 09:34 pm (UTC)
I haven't seen a Jack/Boone fic in ages - thanks for resurrecting this pairing.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost boone dead but PRETTYjanie_tangerine on March 25th, 2008 12:43 am (UTC)
I haven't either and well, my header said it all. You're much welcome, the resurrecting is all my pleasure! Now if they only would resurrect someone we'd be set...
Wisecracks: Sayid/Deswisecracks on March 25th, 2008 03:01 pm (UTC)
*SOB* I miss Jack/Boone so much. I think something really did break in Jack.

I thank you for this.
the female ghost of tom joad: lost des/sayid *g*janie_tangerine on March 25th, 2008 03:13 pm (UTC)
And thank you for reading, I'm so really glad you liked it ♥ don't tell me, I so miss them, too. *mourns* *sigh*